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It’s a song I wrote several years ago after attending an AA twelve step meeting. I was encouraged to attend to understand better what people are going through who are in recovery from addictions.

Friends that I know in recovery have been forced to learn about themselves in deep ways in order to survive and thrive. I believe Including friends working through an addiction in community can help us understand our common humanity.


I gotta treacherous soul
I know I can't trust myself anymore
I fallen deep into an empty well
I started taking too many prescription pills

I always get tears in my eyes when the choir sings
There's a lump in my throat when the preacher preaches
and when I read out loud I get all shaken up
when I sleep I can’t stop thinking these thoughts

I'm gonna get clean
I'm gonna get clean for you baby, somehow

I know you don’t believe a word I say
But I’m checking myself in today


from Jared Both & the Secret Hymns, released March 1, 2020




Jared Both London, Ontario

I am a songwriter from Southern Ontario who has recorded and performed with:
Barn Owl (Toronto)
-Young Feathers (Kitchener & Hamilton)
-Gospel of Barn Owl (Hamilton)

Now I'm recording and releasing music under my own name with friends from past bands and new friends in London Ontario where I live now.
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